Who has healed?
I’ve been thinking about this lately before going to Therapy.. Who has healed?
Sure I’m Therapy, going through this workout weekly for 6 months now. Perhaps now I have words to talk about what happened to me as a child, and I’m told that’s healing where before shame and grief kept me down. That’s it though... and maybe that is as huge as my Therapist tells me. Everything else though is just unpacking more and more shit in details, and new memories previously blocked. Is this real progress or putting myself through unnecessary pain.
I figured at the start that while my abuse was over years, that perhaps it will take an equal amount of years to heal. That doesn’t exactions seem logical though, but then I’m not there yet to know. When I listen to survivors here and there, most have been in therapy for decades in cases, and some since they were in their teens.
I can only deduct that this will never end for me, as it appears for so many. Perhaps I was meant to be doomed from the start, and now I’m simply going through the motions to... What, prolong my existence? Maybe long enough to find some magic moment where I’m able to skip happily through life?
Who here has healed?
Sure I’m Therapy, going through this workout weekly for 6 months now. Perhaps now I have words to talk about what happened to me as a child, and I’m told that’s healing where before shame and grief kept me down. That’s it though... and maybe that is as huge as my Therapist tells me. Everything else though is just unpacking more and more shit in details, and new memories previously blocked. Is this real progress or putting myself through unnecessary pain.
I figured at the start that while my abuse was over years, that perhaps it will take an equal amount of years to heal. That doesn’t exactions seem logical though, but then I’m not there yet to know. When I listen to survivors here and there, most have been in therapy for decades in cases, and some since they were in their teens.
I can only deduct that this will never end for me, as it appears for so many. Perhaps I was meant to be doomed from the start, and now I’m simply going through the motions to... What, prolong my existence? Maybe long enough to find some magic moment where I’m able to skip happily through life?
Who here has healed?