My deeply me

[My Deeply Me]

Hey everyone, I'm very new here. I struggled my entire childhood with confusion. I do have ASD level 1, and I struggle with ABDL, which helps me cope, i used to wet tge bed untill my midteens. I've been in trauma and sexual therapy for the past few years. I was sexually abused by someone when I was like 12. I'm not really sure what happened there (or what the situation was). I'm now at the stage of starting to feel myself and letting go, so I no longer protect my abuser. It's a very hard situation. In therapy, it's very hard for me to speak about this. I'm scared to death; I'm full of pain. I've processed a lot with somatic therapy. I can now open myself up a little. I can sometimes feel so much pain, sitting in my car and just feeling the need to cry (I can't cry with tears due to so much abuse). I've been married for about 10 years now to my lovely wife and kids, who make me feel safe and like I belong in this world. I hope one day I will be able to openly share my journey. The image in my avatar is not me; it's an AI-generated image I got from the internet. This is the best image that represents my deepest self, even though the hairstyle and some other details aren't exactly what I had at that age.

 

[GaD3!]

Again welcome to MS. It is good that you are here. There is much support here and you are among brother survivors who care and understand. Thankfully you are working with a trauma informed therapist. It is very difficult to heal without help. We survivors walk a painful and difficult path, but there hope. cling to the hope. I wish you peace and healing. Take care.

 

[Curiouspaints]

Hey everyone, I'm very new here. I struggled my entire childhood with confusion. I do have ASD level 1, and I struggle with ABDL, which helps me cope, i used to wet tge bed untill my midteens. I've been in trauma and sexual therapy for the past few years. I was sexually abused by someone when I was like 12. I'm not really sure what happened there (or what the situation was). I'm now at the stage of starting to feel myself and letting go, so I no longer protect my abuser. It's a very hard situation. In therapy, it's very hard for me to speak about this. I'm scared to death; I'm full of pain. I've processed a lot with somatic therapy. I can now open myself up a little. I can sometimes feel so much pain, sitting in my car and just feeling the need to cry (I can't cry with tears due to so much abuse). I've been married for about 10 years now to my lovely wife and kids, who make me feel safe and like I belong in this world. I hope one day I will be able to openly share my journey. The image in my avatar is not me; it's an AI-generated image I got from the internet. This is the best image that represents my deepest self, even though the hairstyle and some other details aren't exactly what I had at that age.

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[Bluedogone]

I can now open myself up a little

Hi @My Deeply Me WELCOME

I'm glad you've joined MS and hope it only adds to the great progress you've made in overcoming a lot of pain and suffering.from past abuse. May you continue to open up more and more as you realize you're among friends, compassionate brothers and those who actually understand how childhood sexual abuse can almost ruin our lives. Always remember it's ALMOST. We're survivors.