Strong dad getting weaker
I’ve never told anyone, I’m 41 now. My kids are 19 and 17, December will be my 20th anniversary with my wife. How can something that happened when I was 10 make me think of my end constantly. My family is the only reason I’m still here, I fear letting them down more than anything. I want to have the desire to live, not out of obligation but from a genuine love of life. I feel like the pressure just keeps building, I know I should have told someone a long time ago. I cannot afford a therapist, I make 75% of the modest income in our household as a small business owner and can’t afford to go check myself in somewhere. As a pastors son I am completely opposed religious solutions, it upsets me more than anything else. Does anybody know of low cost resources where I can get help? Thanks for reading this.