*Triggers Possible* Baby Talk
blackrabbit223
Registrant
TW for sexual abuse and dehumanization.
I’ve mentioned before that my ex treated me like their pet, they even called me as such. But I don’t think I’ve talked about the voice they’d use.
I was looking at videos of my late cat and found some from 2022. She looked way healthier then and thought I might as well watch it. I watched it once on mute because I forgot to turn the sound on, the second time I was really caught off guard by hearing their voice again even though it’s in a video.
They’d talk to animals in that usual baby talk voice, but also to me in that voice to give me commands or something. Things like good boy, lay down for me, etc . I cried after hearing the video of them talking to my cat and I rarely cry now after starting hormones.
And to make things worse I’ve been struggling with the psychosis again. I have a lot of questions for my psychiatrist and I’m afraid that I’m schizophrenic because its been going on for a while. If it turns out I am I’ll probably make a post about that. Even if I’m not I’ll still post about it sometime.
I don’t know whether I want to take another break after this or log in more often. But I’m not leaving, that’s for sure. Thanks so much to MS for being a place that I can talk about this stuff in, I really appreciate all you guys.
I’ve mentioned before that my ex treated me like their pet, they even called me as such. But I don’t think I’ve talked about the voice they’d use.
I was looking at videos of my late cat and found some from 2022. She looked way healthier then and thought I might as well watch it. I watched it once on mute because I forgot to turn the sound on, the second time I was really caught off guard by hearing their voice again even though it’s in a video.
They’d talk to animals in that usual baby talk voice, but also to me in that voice to give me commands or something. Things like good boy, lay down for me, etc . I cried after hearing the video of them talking to my cat and I rarely cry now after starting hormones.
And to make things worse I’ve been struggling with the psychosis again. I have a lot of questions for my psychiatrist and I’m afraid that I’m schizophrenic because its been going on for a while. If it turns out I am I’ll probably make a post about that. Even if I’m not I’ll still post about it sometime.
I don’t know whether I want to take another break after this or log in more often. But I’m not leaving, that’s for sure. Thanks so much to MS for being a place that I can talk about this stuff in, I really appreciate all you guys.
