Why feeling and healing is so hard to understand
Tryingtolive
Registrant
In my experience.
I find when I’m doing the healing work. I find I struggle with my feelings. My inner self wants to be fixed. Almost free in a way. From the darkness from my past and my mind. I find when I’m not healing I can explore my feelings in ways that seem to be normal. The deeper I go into healing I find it harder to deal with my feelings. I was just curious if anyone else has had this experience. It seems as though the abuse is always there. My problems set aside. But the abuse my past is all there in the present. When I set aside my abuse it feels as though I’m nothing. I think that’s what makes trauma so debilitating. When we want to work on it. It brings on the pain. When we ignore the trauma we find other ways to mask the pain. It’s a vicious cycle that I’m not sure how to break.
I find when I’m doing the healing work. I find I struggle with my feelings. My inner self wants to be fixed. Almost free in a way. From the darkness from my past and my mind. I find when I’m not healing I can explore my feelings in ways that seem to be normal. The deeper I go into healing I find it harder to deal with my feelings. I was just curious if anyone else has had this experience. It seems as though the abuse is always there. My problems set aside. But the abuse my past is all there in the present. When I set aside my abuse it feels as though I’m nothing. I think that’s what makes trauma so debilitating. When we want to work on it. It brings on the pain. When we ignore the trauma we find other ways to mask the pain. It’s a vicious cycle that I’m not sure how to break.
