Not Everyone Can Picture Things In Their Mind
thank you so much for sharing your experience with me. I have not heard from anyone else to go through the same. it would be interesting to know of others that go through this or if there is any information on it in past studies.For me it is like watching a movie- very graphic, like it is happening in the present, although not quite like a flashback.
in my experiences psychosis, hallucinations and delirium have always overtaken my reality as far as i can remember.Hmm yeah I don't think what I described applies for non flashback things, except in the case of psychosis and hallucinations in which case the psycho-somatic thing once again can appear.
Yes, as far as I remember, I can distinguish between them. It is almost like I can be in either place. Say for instance I am washing the dishes, I know I am washing the dishes, but at the same time I can see the abuse taking place. If I am not careful I can slip into the abuse, which is like a flashback, but I can just ignore the abuse "movie" and focus on the present task, although still aware of it. It just happens sometimes, I don't know why. I hope that makes sense.thank you so much for sharing your experience with me. I have not heard from anyone else to go through the same. it would be interesting to know of others that go through this or if there is any information on it in past studies.
can you also always distinguish between both sights which is real?
Past certain stress and panic thresholds, part of your active narrative memory can shut down and sort of stop recording some senses or incidents completely.I sometimes have sudden memories of what happened and some of them don't bother me but some do. My heart suddenly feels like it will explode and my mind races when I have a flashback that reveals something I wasn't expecting. Then I know instantly that it isn't my imagination or a mind game I'm playing on myself but a distinct memory of what happened. They have recently been happening more often and I frequently over time remember more of what happened. Interestingly I can visualize things that are incidental to the abuse but not necessarily the actual act of abuse. In one instance I could clearly "see" the fabric of the tent I was in and the leaves and dirt on the floor. In the most recent flashback I could "see" the floor lamp with the red lightbulb in detail and I could visualize the course fabric of the daybed/couch I was kneeling on while being sodomized. The rest of what followed I can remember but I can't visualize it. Sometimes my flashback will only reveal something that was said but that can also cause my heart to pound.