Grace for Everyone
This is hard, even excruciating, to write. Something I've struggled with ever since. I feel like a traitor to myself and worry that I may add more pain to many more, especially those boys and men who have suffered like I have. I weep over that. Some people use that figurative, yet God has been colleting mv tear. His hands are full. I pray knowing what my heart says - for Me everything and in everything - though I could use everyone's prayers and thoughts. I can accept everyone's messages; sadly we have paid the price as boys and now as men. Who's wisdom could I better to appeal to?
Over the last year, searching for a church in vain, I've accepted that God wanted me at the right church, and that will happen for His will, Even part of the picture seems beyond my strength. This summer and and into fall has been difficult for me, mom having cancer, weaker, and increased seizures over the past year. He was truly helped me to forgive, though it hurts, as He has shown me the depths of His grace. Oh that they should know Christ, not know of Him - just that He exist - but that He offered Himself on the cross. Grace for everyone has been a depth I couldn't travel without Christ. I don't know how, if it's possible, but I'd like to do prison ministry. Exactly I think I could best serve God that way. It hurts, it hurts everyday that I have drug my feet. Are the worst allowed to hear the gospel? Still, every it hurts everyday that I consider something that could cause boys and men even more pain.
Over the last year, searching for a church in vain, I've accepted that God wanted me at the right church, and that will happen for His will, Even part of the picture seems beyond my strength. This summer and and into fall has been difficult for me, mom having cancer, weaker, and increased seizures over the past year. He was truly helped me to forgive, though it hurts, as He has shown me the depths of His grace. Oh that they should know Christ, not know of Him - just that He exist - but that He offered Himself on the cross. Grace for everyone has been a depth I couldn't travel without Christ. I don't know how, if it's possible, but I'd like to do prison ministry. Exactly I think I could best serve God that way. It hurts, it hurts everyday that I have drug my feet. Are the worst allowed to hear the gospel? Still, every it hurts everyday that I consider something that could cause boys and men even more pain.
