New here & seeking advice
A few nights ago my husband revealed to me that he had, in his words, been the victim of 'child rape'. From the little he said I know it happened more than once and that it was a boy/man.
He is not someone to ever talk about his problems. Always in the past I have had to really push conversations to get him to open up and allow us to get to the bottom of what is going on. I know that is absolutely the wrong thing to do here and won't be doing that.
I'm ashamed to say initially my response (kept to myself) was anger that he had kept something so huge about his past from me and desperate to know more. I've moved on from there and now my concerns are around next steps.
He recently sought help for depression for the first time even though it is something he has always struggled with. Unfortunately the help received was a waste of time and in order to go further he needs to go through the process again, something he had said he didn't want to do. (UK based so through NHS, we can't afford to go private)
I don't want to push him to talk or seek help before he's ready but equally I know he is not someone to ever do either of these things on his own.
His depression has been fuelled by work and money situations however I now know that this has of course been a major contributing factor. He's not doing well at the moment and I worry if I do nothing things will just get worse. He keeps looking at me as if he's waiting for me to bring it up.
I've seen that the charity SurvivorsUK has a free counselling service, that of course would mean us talking about it though. The question is how to get there.
I can't help now looking at him and seeing this scared little boy that I just want to hold and make whole.
There is of course lots more I could say to add further context but then I'd be writing an essay. Hopefully this is enough to understand the situation as a starting point.
Any suggestions on what I should do now would be hugely appreciated.
He is not someone to ever talk about his problems. Always in the past I have had to really push conversations to get him to open up and allow us to get to the bottom of what is going on. I know that is absolutely the wrong thing to do here and won't be doing that.
I'm ashamed to say initially my response (kept to myself) was anger that he had kept something so huge about his past from me and desperate to know more. I've moved on from there and now my concerns are around next steps.
He recently sought help for depression for the first time even though it is something he has always struggled with. Unfortunately the help received was a waste of time and in order to go further he needs to go through the process again, something he had said he didn't want to do. (UK based so through NHS, we can't afford to go private)
I don't want to push him to talk or seek help before he's ready but equally I know he is not someone to ever do either of these things on his own.
His depression has been fuelled by work and money situations however I now know that this has of course been a major contributing factor. He's not doing well at the moment and I worry if I do nothing things will just get worse. He keeps looking at me as if he's waiting for me to bring it up.
I've seen that the charity SurvivorsUK has a free counselling service, that of course would mean us talking about it though. The question is how to get there.
I can't help now looking at him and seeing this scared little boy that I just want to hold and make whole.
There is of course lots more I could say to add further context but then I'd be writing an essay. Hopefully this is enough to understand the situation as a starting point.
Any suggestions on what I should do now would be hugely appreciated.