I think my parents were attracted to me

[The Blackangel]

When I was young my parents had a strange fixation on me. When my father wasn’t beating me, and my mother wasn’t reminding me how worthless I am, they were different. My mother demanded to be in the bathroom with me when I was taking a bath. She would tell me “Just put a washrag over it” as if that would make it ok. She would also make comments about whether or not I had any sexual partners, which seemed like she was fishing to find out whether or not I was getting laid. My dad was a little different. He would leave porn in my VCR and Playboy’s on my bed. Granted, I was around the age of 13, and loved seeing nude women. I didn’t really pick up on what he was doing. I heard it was called “covert incest” or something like that. I also had to sleep in his bed with him when my parents first divorced. I don’t remember anything specific happening, but I have this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that something was happening. I’ve pretty much been confused about what was going on ever since. I was molested by a male nurse when I was 10. I never told anyone, because I was scared of it happening again.

And I’ve already talked about what happened in 2016.

I don’t know where this leads to, or even IF it leads anywhere. I just know that I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.