I would refer you to my own story, posted in two parts, just over a year ago here. You can easily access it in my post history. I was the victim of 11 different perps between that age of 5 and 18, violent physical and emotional abuse from my parents, as well as religious abuse too. I spent many years struggling withdrawn from my family in isolation all whacked-out on dope and involved in destructive sex addiction too. I had some initial success in my first attempt at therapy but a combination of lousy circumstances in my life helped ruin that first chance and I went off of the deep end for another 7 years. Part of the reason was that I was still too shy and too worried that anyone would find out what I was doing.
Finally after an intervention in 1996 I began my recovery journey again. I was inpatient in substance-abuse recovery several times. I attended therapy from several fine specialists. I went inpatient at a place that specialized in treating addiction and childhood sexual victimization concurrently. And I finished-up in the Spring of 2000 with another outfit that treated both issues on an outpatient basis. The last 9 years have been the best years of my life. I have gone from daily hard drug abuse in the worst part of the inner city to owning a house in a nice suburb. I have 9 years on the same job. And I finally met, dated, and married my 2nd wife, something that I had at one time thought impossible.
Have you heard of Prescott House? They are an inexpensive inpatient treatment facility in Prescott, AZ that will treat addictions and childhood sexual victimization at the same time. I attended there back in the Fall of 1999.
http://www.prescotthouse.net/
Much more expensive would be another option, which would involve some inpatient substance-abuse therapy at Hazelden in MN, then possibly their Jellinek program, then staying in a halfway house in St. Paul while seeing Mic Hunter there. This basically describes some of my treatment history.
http://www.hazelden.org/
http://unjobs.org/authors/mic-hunter
Listing from www.theawarenesscenter.org:
Minnesota
St. Paul Mic Hunter, PhD, LMFT 357 Kellogg blvd., East, St. Paul, MN 55101
Phone: 651-224-4335
Experienced working with both male and female survivors. Author of several books on child sexual abuse
(Sorry Ken, you are not in their directory).
Anyhow, it took me a considerable amount of time in my recovery, and many setbacks, to finally find my freedom. But the end result has been better than my wildest dreams had been. I have found the life that I was meant to live before I was abused. My recovery is so complete that I went several years of not even thinking about my previous limitations before I discovered this site a year ago and decided to try to help out here. My self-esteem and confidence have been restored, as well as healthy adult intimacy too. Recovery is possible, my man, if you will just stay with it and keep on giving an honest effort.
Here at MS is a great place to come for help. Hope that we can help you find your freedom here too.
Mark