Crying

[John Silver]

Crying.

Crying is good. I have very seldom been able to cry. It must have been a year or so, that I last cried. It was in a therapy session, doing some EMDR on some painful experiences.

But crying is good. It pains me that I am unable to cry. The tears have run dry. But today, my wife is away. I don't think she loves me anymore. But that is not the point here. But being alone has given me the opportunity to cry.

The tears are good. I cry because of my wasted childhood, because of my parents that abandoned me. I cry because of my lost innocence, because of my school teacher that took it away from me. And I cry because of myself, because of what I did to myself because of all this. And because of the wasted life that I have lived. And because of all the flashbacks that still exist.

But still, the tears are good. Very seldom I am able to cry. Today I am.

Sorry for the rant. Just wanted to share something. Take care. And if you can cry, be grateful of it. I have so many times wanted to cry, but coudn't. Today I can.

 

[Georgie]

Crying is a wonderful way to release stress. In early August, I did it for the first time in years. It occurred as a result of a combination of some of the stories I read on this site and the realization of how much I love my boyfriend. The two together did it.

 

[the-part-that-stayed]

I angry cried for the first time recently. Take care of yourself and drink some water.

 

[the-part-that-stayed]

I'm sorry, I forgot to include the important stuff. You don't deserve this burden. It shouldn't have been yours. It's not your fault. Your pain is real and warranted. I've cried for all those reasons too and it hurts. I hope you are finding healing.

 

[GaD3!]

No need to apologize. It is good that you have shared this. You have deep wounds and there is much pain and sorrow so the tears are good. One day at work several years ago so much sorrow hit I started to cry and could not stop for a couple of hours. I was a gardener/ groundskeeper so that day I was picking up litter and no one was around so it was ok. I truly wish you peace and healing. Take good care and I hope you have a good week end.

 

[oic]

Tears (1892)

Not in the time of pleasure
Hope doth set her bow;
But in the sky of sorrow,
Over the vale of woe.
Through gloom and shadow look we
On beyond the years!
The soul would have no rainbow
Had the eyes no tears.

John Vance Cheney