I can barely type for all of the tears in my eyes. I have never been the recipient of such caring. You guys are truly a blessing to me. Next to my daughter, you are the greatest gift God has given me.
My wife is having second thoughts about her committment to me. I cannot blame her; I have been a real Sh&t to her and then I have an affair. No I never hit hr, but I distanced myself from her, I projected on her, well you get the picture.
She does not know if she has the energy or the love to wait for my recovery. She said that I have killed all of her emotions. It is only fitting that I run away the only person that did not want to abandon me!
Then there is my daughter. The thought of ripping apart her word kills me. The guilt and contempt I feel for me is all engulfing. I just want to sit in a carwash for days trying to get the filth off of me.
Thanks for letting me ramble.
Danny