Brother Brett,
I know that it's hard to believe (and it's REALLY hard for me to say right now!), the best advice I can give you is to hang on. Just hang on.
As hard as it may be to believe, things will get less difficult over time, then they will get easier. The alternatives are limited and not very appealing, depending on your belief system (even a non-belief system!).
Everyday for the past few weeks, I've told myself that I can get through the day, and some days it works. Other times, it doesn't. But it doesn't mean that I want to give in. I don't want to cheat myself on the time that could be better.
I'm rambling, but I don't want to give up on hope. You shouldn't either, Brett, because at the end of the day, it can be the only thing to have, and it's the last thing we should allow taken from from us.
Peace and love, Brett,
Scot