Will it ever go away...?
Hey fellows,
this is a huge deal for me to post in this thread. Is signifies my acceptance of my homosexuality as a part of me and not something to be rid of. I have never been in this place before.
There is a question I have, however that some of you may be able to speak to. First context: the first sexual experience I ever had was associated with punishment and trauma afterwards for my participation. I then spent a childhood having secret liaisons with a boyhood friend and while I was way into the activity (I am still mad for oral) I would feel so much shame the next day.
This shame has stayed with me through every sexual experience for the rest of my life. Every orgasm I’ve ever had from masturbation to sex with my wife has always been followed by at least a pang of shame. My question, therefore, is like the title of this thread: will the shame ever go away? Is it possible to have a sexual experience, with a man or woman, after which I don’t feel dirty or shameful? I know you can’t answer for my personal experience. Only I get to find out, but have any of you overcome similar shame attached to sex?
this is a huge deal for me to post in this thread. Is signifies my acceptance of my homosexuality as a part of me and not something to be rid of. I have never been in this place before.
There is a question I have, however that some of you may be able to speak to. First context: the first sexual experience I ever had was associated with punishment and trauma afterwards for my participation. I then spent a childhood having secret liaisons with a boyhood friend and while I was way into the activity (I am still mad for oral) I would feel so much shame the next day.
This shame has stayed with me through every sexual experience for the rest of my life. Every orgasm I’ve ever had from masturbation to sex with my wife has always been followed by at least a pang of shame. My question, therefore, is like the title of this thread: will the shame ever go away? Is it possible to have a sexual experience, with a man or woman, after which I don’t feel dirty or shameful? I know you can’t answer for my personal experience. Only I get to find out, but have any of you overcome similar shame attached to sex?