Last year before my SA bf confided in me, life seemed perfect. Recently he confided in me about the SA and life has been turned upside down. But I refuse to leave him because I love him and whatever good/bad things happen in life, I want him at my side. It's been extremely hard, but I try to squeeze all the happiness from all the little "okay" days that he has or even his "half-smiles" and cherish them. I wouldn't go back to the perfect days of last year because then, unbeknownest to me, we were hovering like a helicopter. He was acting happy yet living an inner hell. Now that we are on the long journey to recovery, our relationship is moving FORWARD, ever so slowly, 4 steps forward, 3 steps back, snails pace even, but my eyes are open. He loved and trusted me enough to confide in me. I don't want anyone else but him. He may not be perfect (neither am I), but he's perfect for me.
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