Why am I crying?

Why am I crying?
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Bobby

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I'm so glad I found this place. I have so many questions that come and go. This one is unusual. I have been walking around this afternoon crying for no reason. I don't cry for long periods of time...maybe 10 to 20 seconds, but I cry out loud. There is no rhyme or reason as to when this happens. I'm not thinking about anything in particular. I'll just be working around the house and all of a sudden I'm crying.
Then I stop for awhile and I'm crying again. I have been concentrating on my SA a lot lately because I found the discussion board and have spent a lot of time here. So, my question is: Could this be part of my SA or do I just have a mental problem? Please give me your opinions. Don't worry about making me cry. I'll cry either way. Bobby
 
Bobby,

you have not been here so long, but you are not alone in the feelings you are showing.

You have held these secrets for many years and now you tell everyone in here. You have been exploring the past, when the little boy cried so much.

I remember as a child, so many tears, sometimes difficult to hide, as eyes always tell the story, when you remember how red raw your eyes were, I remember then that I always burst into crying for "NO" Reason, "No REASON", I had every reason.

You probably blocked so much emotion out when you were a kid that you would have just wanted to get away from your mind. That is when you cry, when everything seems to be impossible.

When you think nobody understands you as a kid, you lose your unique identity, it is changed and tempered to what is expected of you, rather than who you should be.

Don't worry though, you are getting through it as a great man. Your poetry is really inspiring, it is as though we live and think through so much shared emotions as children.

Never underestimate how strong you were as a kid, he got there, he is here, he is seeing himself more as himself than maybe he has ever known.

It is so hard now to cry as an adult, but it is wonderful when we can. I make myself cry, it does a whole load of good to release these emotions through crying.

take care,

ste
 
My first reaction is that this is release, kind of like sicking up the poison.

I used to sit and look out the window and begin to cry, but not know why. That was really frustrating because I still hadn't made the connection between my problems and the abuse.

It sounds like you are doing wonderful work, and that is what it takes to recover.

If you have a miniute, click my quote and it will take you to my survivor story posts. It sounds a lot like I'm bragging there, but the point I try to get across is that there is hope.

Take care,
 
Bobby,

If you're just now beginning the process of dealing with all this, then I think the crying is perfectly normal. My own experience is that I began dealing with this 7 months ago, and during that first couple of months, I cried every day, several times a day. Gradually, as I began to work through all this stuff, it tapered off. I still cry occasionally when I start thinking about it all too much and it becomes overwhelming, but the emotions are not nearly as raw as they were back then. 5 months of therapy has a lot to do with that, I know, but I think time does as well.
 
Bobby,

I think crying is good for you. It's a release. I wish I could cry more. I wouldn't allow myself to cry after I was last molested and my abuser saw me crying. He felt sorry for me and I hated him trying to be nice to me after he abused me. He even cried for me. BFD! Now I can rarely cry. When I do it's just a second or two. So cry when you can buddy. I think you'll feel better. Sounds like it's a needed release for you at this point.
 
Bobby,

I NEVER cried where anyone could here me until I had to tell what happened whenI couldnt keep it in. I cried pretty much for two days nonstop and I couldnt stop it.

I don't know much about this yet, but the therapist I meet next week says I should expect it. He says that stuff that is inside from then has to get out somewhere sometime. And I guess this is it.
 
Thanks to everyone who wrote. I didn't know what to expect, but you have all been very kind and very,very helpful. Bobby
 
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