White walls again *triggers

Healing light

Registrant
Looking round the room
Feeling a sense of doom
A Bible
Is he for real
I know the score
Been here before
"This will give you time to think "
He's probably gone for a drink
Layed on the bed looking at the ceiling
With that doom feeling
Try to think of a game plan
How to reason with the man
I love you
He won't think that's true
I could try
No I think I'd rather die
Hours pass by
He was probably getting high
Thought he won't be back till morning
Then he appears without warning
Told to repent my sins
After which punishment begins
Forgiveness is earnt
Lessons are learnt
Respect I don't deserve
It's him I have to serve
Hours pass by
I wonder if this time I'll die
But he leaves with a parting blow
To sleep , how I will never know
I hear the padlocks close
The shame flows
Through every inch of me
I don't even try and break free
Just curl up in a ball
Facing the white wall
 
There are so many white walls. Some are terrifying like yours, some are numbing, some are padded and absorb sound...
All of them keep us locked up until we learn a way to break free.
Your white walls are so painful, and so familiar.
 

newground

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Those locks are broken now my friend. Push against them and see your strength. This piece is painfully real ...tragically so.
 

Healing light

Registrant
There are so many white walls. Some are terrifying like yours, some are numbing, some are padded and absorb sound...
All of them keep us locked up until we learn a way to break free.
Your white walls are so painful, and so familiar.
Thanks for sharing I'm sorry that it's familiar. Yes indeed , until we break free
I have wrote 3 other white walls poems exploring the emotions I felt
I also wrote a song it helps to release some of the bundle of feelings

Wishing you peace in your healing
HL
 

Healing light

Registrant
Those locks are broken now my friend. Push against them and see your strength. This piece is painfully real ...tragically so.
Thanks very much , I'm certainly pushing against them right now making the biggest leap of faith since I disclosed
Peace
HL
 
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