Which way is up?

Which way is up?

MikeInFlorida

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Hey Guys,

My name is mike, and I am new here. I am looking to make some new friends, and build a support group.

I am 42 years old, and honestly don't fel a day over 35. I am prior US Air Force, and was sationed over in Germany fot 2 years back in the early 80's.

My abuse started when I was just 10 years old. Let me back up, when I was just 7 years old my mom devorced my bological (real) dad because of his drinking problem.

I am the oldest child of 3. I have one sister 2 years younger, and one younger brother by 5 years.

My mom later remarried and my step father was a pedifile who focused on me from the time i was 10 until I was 17. When I was about 12 I started smoking pot which both my mom, and my step father smoked although my mom insisted that they never smoked in fron of any of us kids.

I would go and visit my real dad, and he would let me drink.

I feel that I must explain that the reason I drank, and smoked was to escape from my screwed up life. I knew that I was going to be mantally screwed up for the rest of my life, because of my #$#$%&#& !!! step father.

What I did not know is that my respect for authority figures would be destroyed, and to this very day I often find myself in the middle of rebelling.

Well, again "hello" and I am really looking forward to getting to know some of you.

With Love,

Mike
 
Mike,

it is good to 'meet' you. I can relate to your use of other things to numb your 'real life' at that age, and also the losing respect for authority. Those who abused me, they were authority figures, 'father figures', and it did teach me greatly that someone does not gain my respect just because they are in that position, or just because they are older then me. Someone older then me just means they have spent more time on this earth then I have, not have earned my respect. I can imagine that would have been difficult in military though. I wish you good luck here, this can be a wonderful site with much support and compassion.

leosha
 
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