Where? Do you turn!

[reality2k4]

I am writing this to all who have had to endure the feeling of not knowing who, or where to turn to for help.

In my Country the U.K. there is nowhere to turn to, and as a child I had nobody to talk things through, and I carried this massive psychological burden throughout my growing years.

There is never a quick fix on problems we face, but I find it like a minefield of people who "just dont have a clue background".

This is the only place that I can talk openly about my past and ppl recognize my hurt, and nowhere else can I do this.

Sometimes, I think that trying to deal with it is worse than just putting up, and shutting up, but deep down, I know it will bubble up again and explode in my face.

I cannot afford that to happen, but the mask I wear is pretty convincing to doctors, so do I have to let them see the hurt side of me?

I did it to one doc, and had to apologize for hurting him, but I had to do it, to keep my mind in peace,

ste

 

[Muldoon]

ste

Sometimes, I think that trying to deal with it is worse than just putting up, and shutting up, but deep down, I know it will bubble up again and explode in my face.

I agree withyou about this. If we don't deal with it things will explode or we can try to hide from it like I did in drink and drugs but that only works for a short time.

Don't know what the answer is but I do know that hiding doesn't work.
Tom

 

[roadrunner]

Ste,

As boys we learned that we had to shut up and that expressing how we feel would only bring us further harm. That's a false lesson, but still difficult to give up. Every time we are faced with a challenge it is tempting to withdraw and fall back on the old habits, and for good reason: we thought this was a way to protect ourselves.

But as adults, and as you yourself say, we know this won't help us. If we shut down things will just get worse.

You ask an important question:

I cannot afford that to happen, but the mask I wear is pretty convincing to doctors, so do I have to let them see the hurt side of me?

I think the answer has to be yes, we do need to let them see the hurt side of us. It we cannot do that they cannot help us, or can help us only partially and ineffectually. Recovery is all about risks, but risks we need to take.

Isn't the reclaiming of our lives worth the risk?

Much love,
Larry