Where did that come from?

Where did that come from?
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RICK57

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Sorry I've not been here these last few weeks, but glad to see you all supporting each other still.

I've been sort of levelling out....I think. I've covered major ground in the last eight months & didn't quite know where I was going next. It's like my mind makes a major step, has a rest & then throws something else into the field of play.

Found Phil's grave (best friend from when I was 15 & he was killed in accident aged 16). Talked about loads of stuff to good friends & got support. Last couple of weeks were strange but I could feel something building.

Went to York on saturday with my listening ear (good friend & a few beers). Had a great day & got into conversations with people from various nations and some of the locals. I think it was so good that it upset me (does anyone understand that). Until recently I would only start a conversation with people I knew, or join a conversation with friends of friends.

It just all hit me on the way back to the train & I just started sobbing & explaining how much it meant to feel 'so bloody normal'. **** knows what my mate thought ...but he's still speaking & I got more telephone calls than usual on Sunday from other friends that weren't there on the day.

More to the point, I just feel a tremendous weight has shifted off my shoulders.

I know I've still got the big one brewing when I go back to reclaim the abuse sites in late September (time of year / time of day)... I've seen them in their summer best....what will it be like at dusk?

Sorry to anyone new if you've missed my stories...I'm doing a lot to reclaim this thing & I'm going to win!!!!

Best wishes ...Rik
 
Rik,

It sounds like you've already reclaimed so much. Congratulations.

Dave
 
Rik

sorry I missed your earlier posts on this one, I remember when I was at school a brother of a friend was delivering papers one morning, a lorry hooked his bag and he went under it, I really felt so sorry for my friend, it was so hard to console him, he lost his brother so tragically.

I think, when we go back to these thoughts, we really think of life, good times or bad, the laughs we had with these people who really played a big part in our lives.

I have a friend just like yours, who knows me so well, he is always there in times of need, and me for him, it is nice to have these people around, as they don't make judgements, my friend I have known since my teens, and sometimes I think, why do you really want to know me, but it is good that he does, and we are like brothers.

Maybe your friend is just like mine

take care

ste
 
Rik,

I does sound like you have covered great ground and opened a lot of doors.

Here's to your continued growth on your journey.

Bill
 
Rik

It just all hit me on the way back to the train & I just started sobbing & explaining how much it meant to feel 'so bloody normal'. **** knows what my mate thought ...but he's still speaking & I got more telephone calls than usual on Sunday from other friends that weren't there on the day
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Isn't such a brilliant feeling,when your mind switches to "normal"? It is for me, I try my best to make these times more frequent, than not.
The normal side of me intervenes, so much more than it used to, when we allow ourselves to explore our inner self.

You have compassion, and good friends, funny my best friend knows I've been through a lot, and is a terrific help, he was such a rock, when I needed a rock to rest on, I feel bad about leaning on him. I sometimes think I am a burden, but if I look back, he knows I can do the same for him.

Isn't that what friendships should be like?

know I've still got the big one brewing when I go back to reclaim the abuse sites in late September (time of year / time of day)... I've seen them in their summer best....what will it be like at dusk?
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I wish you well, hope you can finally bury the big one!

ste
 
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