Where am I going?

abcd posted a message last week saying that none of us are where we want to be. I keep thinking about that message. I printed it and read it over and over.

I know I don't like who I was. I wonder who I want to be. So I ask myself, what would I want people to say about me when I die? I don;t want people to say, poor Doug, you know what happened to him? It ruined his life, he never got over it.I don't want people to think of me as someone who walked out on his wife and kids.

No, I want people to say, remember Doug? Something terrible happened to him, but he did ok anyway. he was still a good husband and father and loved his wife and kids, he was the nicest guy and alot of fun too. You could count on him for anything. that's where I'm going. I want to be able to look at mys elf in the mirror and like the guy looking back at me and be proud of him.I don't want my obit to say, Doug died, he was a victim of sex abuse, the end. I want there to be more to my story then that.

 

[getteddie]

WOW DOUG,
For me your post was the best post yet...I would really like to do the same. You sound good, sure and + ...I hope that it comes true for ..... you and me....Do what you wrote.....don't change a thing!!!

Eddie

 

[abcd]

Bigbear:

Good to hear you seem to be doing well...keep at it, and just keep getting up when you fall. We're all in the same boat and we're routing for you. Later, man.

 

getteddie and abcd-

Thanks for your replies! This site has meant almost as much to me as my therapy. I read old posts all the time and see things I didn;t see before. Glad I have something to contribute. I feel like I share something with every guy here from abcd to the newest member. Thanks again.

 

I feel like I can maybe see a light at the end of the tunnel. It;s still far away but I think its there.