When Did I Begin
Sunrise22
Registrant
In a very active and really supportive chat room last night we stumbled into thoughts around how we identify. Everyone agreed labels suck but I guess we all still think about it.
I shared that I struggle with wanting to know if how I feel about gender attraction is a direct throughput to csa. I’ve read about imprinting. I’ve read about SSA. While those may apply in other ways I don’t care. But then I really do.
I’ve watched friends of both gender question themselves.
I also know for me at times it’s the person but not the gender that draws me. But I also know they must make me feel safe and secure which I think is an effect.
But I want to know where I began. And i want to know if my label would be different if I did not have experiences at a young age with an older teen. There may be no answer I know. But Ugh!
Thank you to the chat room crowd. You help so much.
I shared that I struggle with wanting to know if how I feel about gender attraction is a direct throughput to csa. I’ve read about imprinting. I’ve read about SSA. While those may apply in other ways I don’t care. But then I really do.
I’ve watched friends of both gender question themselves.
I also know for me at times it’s the person but not the gender that draws me. But I also know they must make me feel safe and secure which I think is an effect.
But I want to know where I began. And i want to know if my label would be different if I did not have experiences at a young age with an older teen. There may be no answer I know. But Ugh!
Thank you to the chat room crowd. You help so much.