When an abuser was someone you loved

I was never sexually abused by a family member. I was how ever physically abused by my Dad and my sister. My Dad kicked me out of the house at 13. I have really bad thoughts about that. He was going to teach me a lesson and did he ever. I learn a lot and none of it was good. He kicked me out because I was acting out and in lots of trouble at school.

My sister was violent to me and my brother. Then she broke my Moms wrist hitting her with cast iron fry pan. That was the end of her being at home they sent her to a group home out of town.

She is the only member of my family left a live and she hates me so we have very little to no contact. My Mom ,Dad and my brother have all past away now. My sister has told so many lies about me that most of our family doesn't have anything to do with me. I also was not a very good kid I was always in trouble.

That was my family
Esterio
 
My mother was raped by her father. I didn't find this out until after her death. I found out that my oldest sister and brother were products of his abuse of her.

I spoke to an Uncle about this...He told me that he used to hear her screams at the night...but was too young to do anything about it. Those thoughts haunt him today. The father was an abusive person to everyone...no one was left out. Just a very mean person. The father died alone...none of his children or any of his other family were on speaking terms with him. My Uncle also told me that the father, mother and the rest of his family were "run out of town". Like I said...no one was spared his meanness.

My brother was my first abuser.

We have to process these things as well on our journey. Somehow we have to "See" these people for who and what they were, no matter how unforgivable they are/were.

much love
Greg
 
I just realized that it's "not funny" how much I can relate to so many of the posts these last few days.

But, it seems not to have shaken me...just reminds me of where and who I am and how I got here.

much love
Greg
 
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I am sorry you are feeling shaken Greg. These topic's have been very hard ones to live with. They pound me down all the time. I am thinking I need to take a break and go to the beach and think about how beautiful it is to live here.

((((((Greg))))))) Much Love to you as well
Esterio
 
no...you misread my statement...I'm not shaken. In fact, I'm realizing that the chances of me falling back into the more familiar cycle of being a victim is slimmer than I thought. Which I've been concerned about.



much love
Greg
 
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Cool sorry I misread that Greg I see it now you are able to take it more now. I am still struggling with a lot. I am trying hard not to let it make me a victim again. I guess I really am a victim of several crimes. It is hard to get away from that for me. I am glad you are not concerned about the cycle of being a victim.

Esterio
 
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