What is hurt?

[reality2k4]

I suppose we all got hurt in our lives, it causes profound effects on our lives. It causes us to adjust our lives to encompass the hurt.

The situation we found ourselves in, was not of our making or our desire, even though our mind is fixated on that deep psychological feeling.

The way that we can only blame ourselves for maybe being weak, I always did, but I have to tell myself that I am indeed a lot stronger than I imagine.

It is hard to do this sometimes, it is harder still to realise what it is like to be normal.
I cannot do this and sometimes I feel like I am outside of the world as it portrays itself.

The World sometimes does not feel so real to me, like it is part of a play that has some pretty bad ending.

I dunno why I feel this way sometimes, I numb out these bad feelings but I also numb out the hurt in doing so.

I am not asking for anyone to feel sorry for me, it is my task.

I suppose it is just addressing issues in the forum and chat where people hurt others.

My World can be so totally unreal to me some days, and I hate feeling that way, but I dont intentionally hurt others,

sorry,

ste

 

[Leosha]

I do not know that any of us will ever be 'normal', because we can not go back and be unabused, unhurt, etc. What we can be is the most 'normal' WE personally can be. What is a normal feeling or state of being for me is not going to be the same for another person perhaps. That does not make either person wrong.

And yes, when it comes to inflicting pain on others, that is stupid and wrong. It does not make the person causing pain stronger or more powerful. It makes them a stupid bully who is incapable of having any control or power within their own life, so they must 'get' it by controlling the emotions of another. They are, in fact, an abuser.

Leosha