What I'm giving up for Lent

[subdeacon]

I decided to give up shame for lent. I finally started therapy and have been twice. Man, it's hard work. I say something then I immediately want to apologize for anything I was thinking or feeling. I don't need to feel sorry for saying the truth! My therapist said the same to me. What a positive and affirming two sessions this has been. I expect to crash any minute! My emotions are all over the place. I sometimes wonder why we let these things affect us so much? I was told by one priest (married) that I should get on with my life and realize that this all happened in the past and that I'm all right now. Well, I'm not all right now, obviously. It's hard to understand, though how these things seep into our conscious and unconscious life. My T. is going to be good for me, I think. I hope so. The T. did not have the same attitude as that former priest of mine, nor does my current priest have the same attitude. Having support makes all the difference. Please pray for me my brothers as I know this is going to get rocky. We have a Lenten service in the Eastern Orthodox Church called a Presanctified Liturgy. There is a psalm that is read in which the Lord turns the Israelites back from their captivity: "They that sow with tears, shall reap with rejoicing..." I'll be glad when that rejoicing comes!

 

[Bill_1965]

Philip,

I couldn't think of anything better that you could have given up for Lent. No need to pick it back up after.

I'm glad to hear that you have started therapy. It can be draining, but that is the negative feelings being drained. That is a good thing, but not very easy.

Take care,
Bill

 

[FlyWM]

Giving up shame is a great idea, it may be difficult at times, but keep at it, and you will win, and as Bill said, no reason to pick it back up after Lent.

It is great you have started therapy, that is very important, I am glad your T is understanding, and am glad your priest understands too, that is very important. It can be very hard work, but it is worth it in the end.

I like the Psalm you posted, I think I need keep that and remember that one, thank you.

Good luck on your healing journey during Lent, and beyond.

scott