What if I'm not a surviver - wasted life -
I apologize for starting a new post.
My search turned up empty.
there is no need to read any further, I just needed to write to someone.
My wife has started counselling for childhood abuse.
I have started to see a therapist as well - initially to deal with my abuse as a child -I started reading her books so I could help her- and all hell broke lose inside of me.
My wife with whom I shared my journal (she shared her experiences with me and I was supportive) has stated that..
She now realizes that her attraction to me was that I was like her father who abused her.
She feels as though I have been abusive towards her just like her father was and treated her similar to the way my abusers were towards me(wich explains alot of the problems we have had)mine and hers.
I now know that I have tried to please her (and gratify myself) in a similar pattern as I had learned.
I have discussed this with my therapist and researched books and websites to get help.
For the last few months our discussions end the same - she wants a divorce - She feels as though her life has been wasted long enough and wants to move on.
It seems as though our seperation is inevitable because she says she feels the same way I would if I was still living with my childhood abusers.
I feel hopeless
My search turned up empty.
there is no need to read any further, I just needed to write to someone.
My wife has started counselling for childhood abuse.
I have started to see a therapist as well - initially to deal with my abuse as a child -I started reading her books so I could help her- and all hell broke lose inside of me.
My wife with whom I shared my journal (she shared her experiences with me and I was supportive) has stated that..
She now realizes that her attraction to me was that I was like her father who abused her.
She feels as though I have been abusive towards her just like her father was and treated her similar to the way my abusers were towards me(wich explains alot of the problems we have had)mine and hers.
I now know that I have tried to please her (and gratify myself) in a similar pattern as I had learned.
I have discussed this with my therapist and researched books and websites to get help.
For the last few months our discussions end the same - she wants a divorce - She feels as though her life has been wasted long enough and wants to move on.
It seems as though our seperation is inevitable because she says she feels the same way I would if I was still living with my childhood abusers.
I feel hopeless