What I learned from abuse triggrs

[reality2k4]

I learned to keep silent even though I reported my abuser to the cops.

I tried to learn to deal with all the crap in my thoughts and to have a decent nights sleep, which was impossible.

I was conditioned into thinking I was dirty, and damaged goods as a child, and thinking that nobody could ever really love him because he was dirty.

He learns so early on, that sex is related to feeling sick, and hurt, and so much hurt, so he relates sex to his own hurt.

So many tears does the little boy cry through this pain, of turning into a man, but he could never hurt, but he carries a lifelong guilt because it has affected every hour of his life.

It was not my fault,

ste

 

[Leosha]

Ste,

you are right. It was not your fault. I hope that you have also learned that you are a strong and decent man who has survived a great deal, and continues to be decent. That is something.

Leosha