That's a very good question. At this time in my life I would not consider myself very masculine but I do consider things like being there for my family and my church and volunteering helping people as very rewarding. I do know that years ago and maybe still it was difficult for me to know how to be a man when I began to reach adulthood. I was sexually molested at nine years old by an adult male cousin for a few years and it did screw me up pretty bad. There were times in my teen years that maybe I thought I was gay and it was very difficult, once I realized I was not gay, to talk to girls and all of my adult life all the relationships I've had with women have all fell apart, even the love of my life. I don't have a spouse to grow old with and I blame it on what happened to me when I was a boy even though I should have tried harder. I just try to be the best man that I possibly can be. Thanks for your postWhat parts of manhood or masculinity are rewarding for you?