What do you do for a living?
We've learned that brain development isn't really complete until we're in our late twenties. We're able to drive a car as a teen, can even vote in many states and can often buy liquor at 18. But how many crazy fucks are getting into car crashes and killing people in their teens and twenties. It takes awhile to grow up and begin making sensible decisions in life. THEN we add sexual trauma to the mix and all bets are off. We're dealing with shame and fear that make every decision a minefield. I'd say to OP, keep doing your healing work and trust that things will get clearer, especially if you're able to find a healthy relationship with yourself.
I was an outstanding student not because I applied myself but because I was smart. But I didn't finish university until I was 25 and didn't find a real job until I was 31. I worked at it for over 15 years with some success but never had a full time job again for the rest of my life. I've survived financially but never thrived professionally. I was much too destabilized by early trauma to get my act together professionally or personally.
Be patient with yourself and keep your focus on self-compassion and self-care. If you're able to do that you will find your direction in life. All the best to you on your journey.
I was an outstanding student not because I applied myself but because I was smart. But I didn't finish university until I was 25 and didn't find a real job until I was 31. I worked at it for over 15 years with some success but never had a full time job again for the rest of my life. I've survived financially but never thrived professionally. I was much too destabilized by early trauma to get my act together professionally or personally.
Be patient with yourself and keep your focus on self-compassion and self-care. If you're able to do that you will find your direction in life. All the best to you on your journey.