What a road

[Enchantedlady]

I finished reading Victims no longer. Very good book!!! It's good to know that what my H is going through isn't abnormal. In fact I can relate myself to some of the things in there

H went to his first appointment alone with the therapist, she asked him quite a few of the same questions that she did when I was with him. I guess she wanted to see if he would answer them diffently, she had been thinking that he held back because he didn't want me to get mad. If she would reread my emails she would know that H has told me much more than he has her. I suppose she had to figure that one on her own.

I stayed in the car while he was in session, I had my journal and did some writing. When he came out he told me that he wasn't quiet that he did talk He was nervous but I knew he'd be fine.

One thing that I really love about my hubby is that he hasn't lost his humor, he's admitted to me there are certain things he doesn't understand (intimacy, knowing what type of love I want/need,etc)or if there is something that needs to be changed in our relationship (what is it a man does in a marriage/home)he's not sure how to go about it. He said that after we get back from our trip Jan 3 he wants to go to the school of Enchantedlady LOL

I have my moments where I'm scared to death to love him, I'm scared of possibility of him saying guess what I can't stay will happen (yes I know that's my issue to work through). So today is my day to see the therapist alone . I tend to love my h so much but then get scared and distance myself from him. He's noticing it and has mentioned it to me, so I'm honest and tell him I'm just scared. Usually when he gives me a hug and we talk I feel much better.

H has said that he doesn't have much memory of when he was younger, the T said that he's either hidden in deep within or that nothing special was going on. Yet that doesn't seem true, when H and I were talking the other day and he mentioned that when was younger he would get teased about being so short and it really bothered him. He also remembered when he was in trouble because he stoled something from Walgreens and his mom made him go pay for it. So I think slowly when we are discussing my childhood or even seeing what our children are going through he then remembers things


There are times when I read other's posts that I don't respond, it's because I'm new to this and don't know what to say at times (that's a shocker LOL)but I always have everyone in my thoughts and prayers

 

[SAR]

Enchanted Lady,

There are no rules about how much you need to read, or reply, to post and get support yourself. Don't worry about what you have, or don't have, to say.

Thanks for the good thoughts, they do reach across the wires...

SAR