Went to doctors today, very discouraging/Triggering
Went to doctors today to find out that the doctor knew about the possibility of cancer a year ago but just recently said something when it became much more evident to him on other scans that he needed to tell me.Doctor now wants to do more medical diagnostic tests to confirm his diagnosis.My wife went with me to the medical appt whixh made it that much harder for me to deal with as she wanted to know what is going on especially since I told her that I was diagnosed with lung cancer but did not know too much more she insisted on going to my doctors appt.
Had to face something today that I was not ready to deal with even though it has been on my mind a lot lately and I can't seem to let go of nor quite totally deal with.I am very discouraged and I am wondering why me of all people why me especially since several family members of mine I have watched go down hill from the very same thing.
Wife is making it that much more tough to deal with and cope with as she keeps questioning me about everything then started in on my doctor today as well which really ticked me off as I had questions for my doctor that I never got to ask.I am so tired of fighting and dealing with pure bullshit,I have had enough anyone have a towel I can borrow,i am leaving the ring and letting someone else take over.Andrew is now in hibernate mode.
Had to face something today that I was not ready to deal with even though it has been on my mind a lot lately and I can't seem to let go of nor quite totally deal with.I am very discouraged and I am wondering why me of all people why me especially since several family members of mine I have watched go down hill from the very same thing.
Wife is making it that much more tough to deal with and cope with as she keeps questioning me about everything then started in on my doctor today as well which really ticked me off as I had questions for my doctor that I never got to ask.I am so tired of fighting and dealing with pure bullshit,I have had enough anyone have a towel I can borrow,i am leaving the ring and letting someone else take over.Andrew is now in hibernate mode.