weirdness

[markgreyblue]

i am back thinking about - when my father and i got back in touch -

he said

"i just want to have a relationship with you"

pretty telling - you have to break down his

words "I want" - it's about what he wants - only.

"a relationship with me"

the relationship that this is - is parent child -

something he does not want -

he wants to be the child who takes -

he doesn't like or love me - and yet -

i think the pay off for him - maybe - in his mind -

the social "disgrace" the social consequence of saying - i don't speak to my son - ugg -

he'd rather i died - and then it's 'not his fault'

this is not productive talk -

m

 

[markgreyblue]

this too is the man - who publicly humiliated me
in front of my division head

- made a meeting with him -

invited me in -

and told him "you need to take care of my son"

thanks - dad -

after 4 years there - they saw i had no value -

or ability -

- --

also -

my sister had a film project -

she told him about it -

a week before it released -
he released his own version -

sick-

and he claims to be so christian -

 

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and of course the man too - when i got a promotion - told me - you're not normal
no one likes you -

first comment made... after being put out that i told him i got a promotion -

methinks he's not much more than a
corroded fly scat -

m

 

[markgreyblue]

ha!

good riddance!

 

[markgreyblue]

about time eh?