weird dream (positive ?) and odd feelings

[Caetel]

In the last few days, a few weird things happened to me.
From time to time, at certain specific moments of the day (especially around 10pm-10.30 pm) I have had the weird feeling that V is thinking about me, that he wants to talk but can't. At these moments, my throat feels blocked and oppressed. It last for 5 to 15 minutes. It can happen when I am watching TV, working, reading, being at work..
Last week I have had a very odd dream though part of it seemed to make sense.
I was in a house with other people I could not identify. Suddenly, there was a fire and people started to calmly evacuate the place. I was slowly making my way out when I realized I would loose all my stuff so I came back upstairs to pick up some of the things I wanted to keep. I couldn't carry too much stuff so I made about three trips until the fire reached the room were my stuff were stored.
There is a cut there in the story and after that I open the door of a room on the ground floor. I can see a line of beds with bodybags containing the bodies of dead burnt people. I am not scared it isn't scary and one or two people are even very much alive. Suddenly, on the far end of the beds, on the left, kind of where I am standing, V raises on his arm and starts laughing and talking to the guy next to him. He is litteraly "raising from the deads". There was so much joy and the dream wasn't scary at all.
This is a very symbolic dream. I understand that all the first part is me closing the door on my past (purifying fire, keeping what I want from the past, house= my family...) but the part about V puzzles me especially because of the "telepathic" intuition.
I wonder what you think about that. I am picking up something very positive and important in V's recovery ?
Have you experienced something similar with your partner ?
Many thanks for sharing
Caro

 

[reality2k4]

Caro, maybe my mind is hurt and stuff, and I am so glad this dream was uplifting and warm.
I think that telepathy really is a true phenomenon, when we think just how powerful a mind can be.

The dream may signify a great bond between you, i not know, it may also signal that maybe this bond may only be a dream.

Dreams can be interpreted in many different ways, but they are intriguing to say the least. When I was working, a girl always told me about her dreams and she had some dream book, but it was not so good, so I work on them with her.

I know that she was either CSA or SA in the past, and I think she knows that of me, so maybe her dreams were so significant to her.

I think though, this dream you have is like the fire you both go through in your lives. It is like you cannot put your finger on each others' hurt.

It is so hard to make relationships meanful when you spend a long time burying emotions, and as a male it makes it even harder to do that.

It is funny how I can pick up on people in my real life situation have been so badly hurt, and yes, sometimes they can hurt me too which I do not understand, but I still feel for them.

I never had any dreams before I came here, but now I get back to the odd one, and although some can be unnerving, they are getting more dreamlike and safe, I dont know why.

I just need to go to sleep and have a dream of abandon and good things that maybe I so much miss.

Maybe I explain my emotions better another day, when my head is clearer. I dont post so good these days.

I have an online journal of poetry, and if you want I can put your poetry in it, but if not, you can post your poetry here. My journal is linked through a lot of websites and it is being listened to, and heard.

hope you are ok, and maybe it helped,

ste