Weak legs and tight chest, neck, jaws & head

Weak legs and tight chest, neck, jaws & head
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honest_lion

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Hello,
I am a surviver since I was around Seven years old. It was my Temp School Teacher in all Boys school. Good thing that he was gone after two incidents. When around 11 one of my own cousin tried forcefully to have sex with me at night. I put up a fight, without making any noise. It was not easy but after about an hour's struggle he gave up. Within a year or so his brother tried the same thing with the same result. While at Ninth grade Homosexual Bullys from the same class tried very hard to get me in their group, also with no results. Those years were very trying. Since then I have been kind of confused. There must be something wrong with me. But I quickly suppressed my uneasiness with the whole issue and kept on living. I am about Fifty years old. About seven months ago, I started feeling a little weakness in my legs and a tight jaws and chest. Had Doctors check me out thoroghly. They gave a clean bill of health. I gave up drinking right away. Finally gave up smoking altogether for last four days, after smoking on average three or four a day for last Eight months. Seeing a therapist for last four months. On different anti-deepressents since then. No luck on any of my pains. Feeling pretty much out of it all day today. May have to go sleep early. Thought I write it down and post.
What do I do ?
-Honest_lion
 
I would say, keep searching for answers. If your current doctors don't provide the answers than don't stop searching until you find the thing that works for you.

In 1991, I was completely paralyzed as a result of holding in the abuse and hiding it. If you saw me now, you would not be able to tell this from looking at me. Therapy helped considerably and more recently, I am using Massage Therapy and Cranial Sacral therapy to help myself heal from the inside out. I've also been working with a person who helping people release trauma from their bodies and in the few treatments I have had, I am already seeing a differance in my life.

But through the past several years since the paralysis, I've just kept searching and my search has taken me into my current profession as a licensed massage therapist.

Don
 
hi honest,

sorry you are having and have been having some bad and/or un-comfortable physiological things going on.

i noticed you were new here on posts and wanted to welcome you here.

i hid mine too for 31 years and came out with it at the age of 41.

i can't help much medically except for say keep on seeing experts and if current care providers don't help, seek other ones. also, please make sure you have a good "t". I am blessed with one and i saw her for depression and if not for her and my ex-live in girlfriends breakup, i would not have began to work on myself. maybe too, but i don't know - that some of your physical illnesses are related to your mindset, stress, past abuse- i don't know - just maybe so.

i have been on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds for a few months, they helped my depression and panic attacks and hurt, lack of sleep, eating, etc. fortunately, except for loosing about 25 lbs, health wise i am o.k.

keep coming here and i do hope you are feeling better or get the care providers to help you. we suffered enough years ago to have to deal with physical crap now.

take care, guy
 
Hi honest_lion

Welcome to the forum

I hope that the Doc's will be able to provide answers for you soon - important thing is to not quit looking for an answer...

I myself started to notice a definate dropoff in my physical conditioning 5 years ago (always been a very physicaly healthy guy - am only 32 - but feel like I'm 62 now) - My muscles were fatigueing very rapidly compared to what they were only a few years ago - it started to interfere with my job and my sports/hobbies - it took 3 years of almost constant testing (you name it - I've been tested for it) to find out that I have a rare form of Genetic Muscular Dystrophy known as M.A.D.D (no joke! - it's short for MyoAdenalate Deaminase Defficiency - although I do like being able to tell people that I'm going MADD and leave them wondering...)(there is no treatment or cure - I have just had to learn to live with it and adjust my lifestyle accordingly)

From what you have described I'd definately be thinking it is somehow muscularly related - but I also know that it could be some sort of vitamin deficency or even a blood born dissorder - Key thing is to not stop looking till you find the answer...

I have had many people tell me that it is all just pain in my mind - just a mental thing (but I know diffrently). Although I know that this does happen to some people I would not consider it too heavily untill all other options have been exhausted...

I wish you luck,

TJ
 
Lion
I have read a number of times that one of the things trauma survivors can experience is unexplained chest pains.
Years ago my doctor prescribed "Nitrolingual" spray to use when an pain occured, it's the stuff angina sufferers use. But it did nothing for me except give me the massive headache that is a side effect of this drug.
So I still get the pains. Maybe twice a week and of varying strength, and the best thing I've found is ice cold water. My 'theory' ( completely unscientific ) is that it might be cramps cause by tension
The pain is all around my chest, both sides, and on the surface in the muscle rather than deeper in the lungs.

Like you I was abused by older boys at boarding school.
I didn't disclose for 31 years, and that was partly due to thinking that because the abusers were barely two years older than me it wasn't abuse but "sex I did with other boys"
It took therapy to figure out that there was also an element of abuse of power going on as well, a strong element at that.

Also, it's hard to tell someone that you were "doing things" with other boys because when we are adults, and telling another adult, it's hard to relate the huge difference between an 11yo boy and a 13yo boy. We tend to see young teenagers as just that - young teenagers.
I had to stop and think about, and look, at the young boys in my life; my nephews and friends kids for instance, and see for real the difference.
Then I could remember clearly the gap between me and my abusers.

Dave
 
Hello Honest_Lion!

You sound like a strong determined man.

If your physician has ruled out any cardiac reasons for your symptoms, you may want to get a second opion. If that doc rules out cardiac problems then I think you can be certain that this is more than likely anxiety. Those symptoms sure fit with anxiety.

There is a lot of help for anxiety if that is what it is.

Talking here; asking questions and replying to posts with your own experience is a big help for most of us.

If you have specific questions either ask them as you have here--or contact a Mod or Admin. We have some very intelligent people here with lots and lots of experience.

Bob
 
Welcome here Lion. I hope that you will find this site as helpful as I have in the time I have been here.

It seems you have already gotten a great deal of good advice. It does sound it could possibly be anxiety. There are different degrees of it. Sometime it will come on out of nowhere as panic or something, but sometime it can be underlying low level thing, a constant thing. Perhaps that is what you are feeling. Of course, to have other serious illness and symptoms ruled out first is best, to be safe.

I hope you will find yourself feeling better, physically and mentally, as you heal from all this. I wish you good luck and better health.

Leosha
 
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