Warning don't read... You wont like it or agree.

Warning don't read... You wont like it or agree.
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Malidin41

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At what point did the entire world forget the basic elementry lesson that you can not fight fire with fire, that love is the only house big enough for all the pain in the world, that hate should never be fought with hate and that two wrongs don't make a right? When will everyone learn and understand that understanding and love is the only way to end the pure evils of this world? How many have to suffer unbelievable amounts of pain and anguish before we end our blindness? Are there answers to any of these questions or is it all left to the sad fact of my greatest fear that there is no hope? I am lost and searching for answers, read the poem below and tell me what you think.

Searching

Mingling in complexities of truth, grasping for a path of nontorturing dirction I falter in searching, beaten by altering ideas of confusing truth. Questions collect in my mind leaving my soul with no direction or answers for a life I wish I could live. Consumed whith overwhelming confusion and despair I pray to be released from the echoes of a truth that I fear! That there is no truth or answer, there is just void or pointless cycles of meaningless dreams. Crying silently within my heart I stand alone amongst the taunting paths that taint and corrupt a paintful beauty of glorious direction amongst a slight breeze of shadowed mistakes. Cursed in a dream of reality a light flashes in the distance, a thundering heart cry of possible hope, that in the end this deceiving path will return a reality of truth.

Written by: Malidin41 on June 12th 1997

Bash me, tear me down, tear apart my thoughts and tell me i'm wrong... All I want is to help and make it better... Nothing more, nothing less...
 
Malidin41,

That's a powerful piece and I like it very much. You were clearly in a very dark place back then and I hope things are better for you now.

In the last few days you have posted a few messages on the DB that reflect a lot of pain, also anxiety about this site. I can't speak for others, but if anything I have said has distressed you I hope you will let me know so we can sort it out.

If you have more general issues, would it be possible for you to pick out someone you really trust here and confide your feelings to them? Or speak to one of the moderators? It might help you a lot.

Much love,
Larry
 
I find it disturbing that every time you been here, you show more understanding and compassion to the people responsible for all us to be here then the people here themselfs.

I am editing this post to add to it this. Even though I write what is above, and I leave it there, because it is not graceful of me to say that, I will also like to add to it that your desire for 'love one another' is beautiful ideal, and you seem to be very kind person. That I do not agree full with you do not mean I disagree full with you. But, if we are to treat with love and respect everone, no matter what they do, where are consequence for our actions? And do that not reinforce to people negative behaviors, and show them that yes, is ok to rape and murder, just as it is ok to plant flowers and teach music? There is love for all. That I do not understand how it is to work. It would have to have been since start of time, and we can not undo the past. We can treat others with courtesy and kindness in present and future, yes; but that do not mean to allow harm or mistreating to ourselfs again. Right?

andrei
 
ak, we all have different experiences and recovery paths - our perps are not the same - and dealing with them is an individual process -

what we do have in common is our needs -

to speak the truth
to end secrets
to not be alone
to deal with the symptoms however painful
to not let the past rule our present
to find some peace

I admire anyone who knows this and takes his own steps toward healing - sometimes speaking the pain is necessary - M knows this is a place to say it -

what I see is his coming from a different place today then he was in 1997 - then he expressed "overwhelming confusion" - today he states an important truth for himself about the power of love and the effects of hate
 
Malidin
that was 9 years ago, and you were obviously in a very dark place, one which I hope is gone now.

If it hasn't entirely gone, then I would guess it is much brighter. After all, you're here.
And that can only be because you can envisage the life of which you dream, however imperfect. If today is better than 1997 then there's little or no reason it can't go on getting better.

Dave
 
Dave,

I really liked this:

And that can only be because you can envisage the life of which you dream, however imperfect.
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If we can envisage it, however imperfectly, we can aim for it.

Much love,
Larry
 
Thank you all so verry much for your honest and loving support.
 
Actual, I think sometime, you do fight fire with fire. Fire fighters often use the 'backfire' to protect.

Hatred, perhaps it is dangerous to ourself. But it does nothing to those who abused us. Because I think most the time they do not know even how we feel of them, or if they do know, that they will care. My love, it is best put toward the good people in my life, not wasted on those who can not appreciate it anyway.

VN
 
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