wanting to know what happened (possible trigger)
MollyHatchetrules
Registrant
I have mentioned that when I was eleven I was abused by someone who I thought was a friend, but another thing I haven't mentioned yet is that almost a year ago I started remembering details about another person who I thought was a friend that also abused me. He only did it once or twice, but for some reason remembering it seems to be even more painful than the memories I have about the person who abused me for over a year. Anyway, although "going in" and "pulling out" is the majority of what I remember about what he did, I also remember seeing someone else there. I know it's possible that he could have also raped me, but I don't think he did. It seems like he didn't want to be there, which would mean that he might have also been raped. Although the memories aren't much more than distorted images right now, I looked through my year book to see if I might be able to recognize him. I think I saw him in there, but right now the memories aren't clear enough for me to be sure. For the most part, it's still pretty much a blur, except for the pain. But I do think that the person I saw in the year book did hang out with the person who did this to me. So it's possible that if he did this to me, then I'm not the only one he did it to. It's rare for an abuser to only have one victim. What I'm wondering is whether or not I should try to find him so I can find out more about what happened. The thing is, I'm not even sure he was there. For all I know, I might have just been seeing things. But if I am able to find him, how should I go about finding out whether he was there or not? Even if he was there, that doesn't mean that he would remember. Assuming that he was there, he might remember less about it than I do.
