wanting the same things

[markgreyblue]

went to another coffee house

sat there and gave myself permission to want what i wanted - saw a few people - and sat and knew as i saw the guys that i just wanted to make friends


would have liked to have talked to one fella - but he uprightly left and went out the door

rather than be crestfallen and perceive it as 'rejection' i thought rather - we were wanting and looking for different things

nothing personal - just we wanted different things - he would not have been what i wanted and i would not have been what he wanted - not a value judgement on either of us -

there is also then as i walked a long seeing other guys and things along the way the really
simple but important perception and thought of what i want - my eyes are truly opening to this-

i am not ready for a relationship right now - because i do not have a cohesive life set up - to really base myself on and look then to comingle my life with another's life - not ready -

want it-

-but not ready -

ah well - good day tho'

and i can be happy by myself, enjoying sunday -

M

 

[Abe]

You don't need a cohesive life to have a relationship. And relationships can shift and change like anything else. And even vanish.

At one point in my life I felt totally destitute and without a future, only a past. A man came into my life who led me across the desert. He was unexpected and I wept each time I was with him, just to know he was there.

We are still together now (seven years later), and it is different now. The challange is to shift our relationship into the present.

 

[markgreyblue]

thanks Abe - I really appreciate your wisdom and comments -

peace -
M