Walking around in a cloud TRIGGER

[Redsongbird]

I don't post much but I always come here. Everyday I read post and I am afraid to reach out to other men because it is men who have abused me and once again yesterday. I was attacked again last nite.....while i was at a college where I am taking nite classes. I went into the bathroom at the end of class and shortly before I knew it two other men who have been stalking me for almost going on four years now where there and pushed me into the larger stall. I tried to fight back but it wasn't possible to get away. They broke my glasses! They ripped my shirt. One fondled my private area.....and my penis responded the way they wanted! I slugged one of them. But here I am ..the next morning feeling like such a jackass. Now my head hurts, my glasses need to be fixed and I am feeling so low. My wife suports me one thousand percent so that is good. I have tons of classwork that needs to be done but I can not focus right now. I am tired, worndown and even mad at my genitals! I just want to disappear for a while. All this happened so fast that I was in shock when it was over...I just picked up my shattered glasses and pulled my shirt together and then headed for the car. I did not report it...please don't tell me to report because it won't do shit to tell anyone.....

Tobey

 

[ForeverFighting]

Tobey, I never know what to say. The last time you posted here you'd been attacked. I think this is past getting help emotionally or psychologically. What are you doing in a practical way to protect yourself? I mean, if I were you, I'd move to another state. What kind of group was this that your dad was involved in? Is your wife OK? I mean, she's got to be scared, too, right? And maybe it won't do anything to report it, but reports add up. If these guys are ever caught, I'm sure it would be helpful to have a long list of reports rather than just one. But what do I know? Your situation is way out of my league. But you've got to take some kind of practical steps to make yourself safer. Even crazy steps like never be alone and stuff. Right?

Take care of yourself. Healing comes in safety, and it's obvious that you don't feel safe right now.

 

[Leosha]

Tobey,

my heart goes out to you. I have been assaulted as an adult, after the abuses of the past. It is a horrific thing to deal with, and it makes us feel so much less value, that it happen again.

I do not know what to tell you. Of course, to report it could be effective. Or maybe not. It depends on the situation. But I do think Michael has a point. You need to be able to protect yourself more effectively. I am so sorry of this happening, and I wish I have better words for you. Please take good care of yourself and try to remain safe.

Leosha