Incestuous Abuse Viewing life through the eyes sexually abused boy (may trigger)

[GaD3!]

I was definitely needy. But he didn't even know me at the beginning. I had been delivering his newspaper for a year or two but I'd never met him because he mailed his payment in. I only met him because he stopped mailing his payment. There's gotta be some way he knew that I was starved for attention. Oh yay, another question that'll never be answered

Predators are experts at "reading" the signs and from there they groom and gain trust and the rest we all know.

 

[LittleSteve]

It may also be the fact that even though you’ve been delivering his paper for a couple years, he might’ve had an age preference and maybe you were just a little too young for him. I’m kind of struggling with the same thing right now is the fact that Uncle Bill had choices of all kinds of boys that he could’ve had. But yet he picked me out of his own neighborhood and went through a lot of difficulties and time and effort to have me. And I guess I’ll never know the answer to the why.

 

[dcwofhs90]

It may also be the fact that even though you’ve been delivering his paper for a couple years, he might’ve had an age preference and maybe you were just a little too young for him. I’m kind of struggling with the same thing right now is the fact that Uncle Bill had choices of all kinds of boys that he could’ve had. But yet he picked me out of his own neighborhood and went through a lot of difficulties and time and effort to have me. And I guess I’ll never know the answer to the why.

Yes, I've thought of the age thing. Maybe he wanted a boy closer to puberty. Another question I'll never get an answer to. But that might not be it; he absolutely loved giving me orgasms when they were dry. He was excited when I finally began to ejaculate but when that started happening, he began to give me fewer orgasms each time I was there. So who tf knows...

 

[dcwofhs90]

Predators are experts at "reading" the signs and from there they groom and gain trust and the rest we all know.

I grew up in a very small town...pretty much everyone knows everyone. Perhaps he knew my homelife better than I thought...

 

[GaD3!]

I grew up in a very small town...pretty much everyone knows everyone. Perhaps he knew my homelife better than I thought...

I would suspect so. I also lived in a small town when the worse of my abuse took place. I have often thought that the abusers most likely knew what my family situation was like before the abuse started.

 

[WeDeservedBetter]

I never felt like an innocent boy. I always felt older like I didn't have a regular playful childhood.

 

[LRD]

@TreeFeller, I can so totally relate to what you are conveying. My abuse started very early on in my childhood by my father. I never knew what an innocent childhood would have been like. I remember always having those distorted thoughts about men and what their crotch looked like or how much hair was coming out of their shirt collar. Such sexual
thoughts at such an early stage of life was normal (or my normal). I will never will know what a normal childhood would have been, except through my own two sons that I tried to make as normal for them as possible.
Thanks for being brave enough to post your thoughts.

 

[GaD3!]

I never felt like an innocent boy. I always felt older like I didn't have a regular playful childhood.

I understand this completely- it was the same with me.

 

[dcwofhs90]

This thread reminds me of just how unique my experience really is since I'm like the only one here who has a memory of being an innocent boy.

 

[Georgie]

I remember being innocent as well.

 

[kmac]

The dad and son relationship doesn't make me wonder so much but because of my aunt/mom relationship when I see a boy and mom who are smiling and talking I don't think anything either. However when I see a boy and mom with cold looks on their faces and no conversation, a boy who's hands are folded in his lap or he's not gazing around and being engaged with his surroundings then I wonder about the possibilities between them.

 

[Stop]

@TreeFeller, I can so totally relate to what you are conveying. My abuse started very early on in my childhood by my father. I never knew what an innocent childhood would have been like. I remember always having those distorted thoughts about men and what their crotch looked like or how much hair was coming out of their shirt collar. Such sexual
thoughts at such an early stage of life was normal (or my normal). I will never will know what a normal childhood would have been, except through my own two sons that I tried to make as normal for them as possible.
Thanks for being brave enough to post your thoughts.

Same. From 6 years old had to know what was in the pants. Drove me nuts.