victim as perpetrator
Hi Michael,
Seeing a little 3yo as a darling little guy that you know worships you and you feel the same way about him, just shows you are a loving kid, (at the time.)
Plenty of parents and grandparents have looked at their offspring and thought of how handsome or beautiful they are sure to be. Some even start worrying about that at about age 7 or 8.
Others have mentioned how normal it is for a teenage guy to be paritally aroujsed--not just teenagers, when taking a shower. You are a normal male--celebrate! You were strong to not just drop the towel, or walk cloose to him and hope he would touch you. You did well. You are strong. You are a good guy. Let the quilt and self-hate go. Celebrate the fact that you cared enough to keep a kid safe when that was difficult to do. If I had a medal I would give it to you.
I truly hope all that false guilt and self-hate of the years can evaporate. It gets in the way of workikng on issues that are real.
Bob
Seeing a little 3yo as a darling little guy that you know worships you and you feel the same way about him, just shows you are a loving kid, (at the time.)
Plenty of parents and grandparents have looked at their offspring and thought of how handsome or beautiful they are sure to be. Some even start worrying about that at about age 7 or 8.
Others have mentioned how normal it is for a teenage guy to be paritally aroujsed--not just teenagers, when taking a shower. You are a normal male--celebrate! You were strong to not just drop the towel, or walk cloose to him and hope he would touch you. You did well. You are strong. You are a good guy. Let the quilt and self-hate go. Celebrate the fact that you cared enough to keep a kid safe when that was difficult to do. If I had a medal I would give it to you.
I truly hope all that false guilt and self-hate of the years can evaporate. It gets in the way of workikng on issues that are real.
Bob