Very Important Question--Please Help (Triggers)

Hi Guys:

I don't know what's happening. I am so SCARED right now. My day was pretty good. Then I was reading something in one of the forums. I don't know what. But it triggered something really bad.

Please tell me....do you really think it is possible to block something? Like to only consciously recall part of an event?

The reason that I ask is that I thought I finally had a handle on what my brother did to me. I thought he fondled me when I was younger. Then when he was a teenager (and I wasn't quite a teen), he tried to get me into bed. Maybe to get me to go down on him or something. I thought I fought. I thought he grabbed my crotch and dug in his finger nails. That, I thought, was where it ended.

But I feel like throwing up right now. Something tells me there was more. Oh, God! Oh, sh*t! That can't be right? Can it? I would remember, wouldn't I?

Damn, Damn, Damn!!!!!
I'm sorry...I'm so sorry. This is coming from someplace, I don't know where. And I literally can't see the screen well because of the tears.

Gotta go. Gotta ground myself or something. If you know, please answer. Thanks!!!!!~

Jasper

 

[Mike Church]

Jasper our minds are a very complicated thing. I have a feeling that when the time is right things come out. What you have to always remember is that no matter what comes out it was never your damned fault. It was your brothers. REMEMBER THAT OK. Whatever it was it was his fault. He abdicated any right to be a brother when this shit all started for you. Hang in there. Do not blame yourself one little bit OK.