Very anxious leading to more fear
I had an EKG while I was in the hospital last month, and it showed what could be some abnormalities in my heartbeat, but one doc says it was ok, but now they ordered a stress test this afternoon and I am so anxious and scared about it. I don't want anything to be wrong with my heart,I don't even want to do this test but I have no choice and it just is making me so anxious which is leading to een more fear. I can't stand this fear anymore, at times fear gets so extreme it is debilitating.
I don't know why, but having this test today really is bringing up some bad memories and I can't stop them, they are overwhelming me all at once, I hate this fear and these memories. I am a prisoner without bars, I am a prisoner of my own mind and my own fear, and that frightens me even more. I just wis these tests didn't remind me so much of the abuse and stuff I suffered, then it would be easier.
scott
I don't know why, but having this test today really is bringing up some bad memories and I can't stop them, they are overwhelming me all at once, I hate this fear and these memories. I am a prisoner without bars, I am a prisoner of my own mind and my own fear, and that frightens me even more. I just wis these tests didn't remind me so much of the abuse and stuff I suffered, then it would be easier.
scott