update...
Sometimes I wonder if this ever ends. Every time I think Ive finally risen out of the mess, some new thing surfaces to drive me crazy. Recently, my attention was called to a habit I have. Though he hasnt said it is for sure, my T said it might be an OCD. Funny thing is that it doesnt even register that Im doing it.
My wife and I continue to improve our communication skills, and I am getting better at expressing myself in the face of adversity. We are rebuilding intimacy and affection, and I am improving in both. I am getting better at recognizing when I am filling non-sexual needs with sex, and am slowly becoming more content in a conventional relationship.
I have been struggling with depression and anger, so I had to stay away from here for a time. In the beginning, reading of everyones struggles helped me, but I reached a point where I needed to get away from all the negativity. Now that I feel stronger, I hope to enjoy you all again. I hate to see many of the faces I knew best missing from the posts. MichaelB hasnt written me in a long time, nor had Mark. I see why, and am grieved to find out Mark has died. I hope something I offered him helped.
Well, thats about it for now. I hope to get to know the new faces.
My wife and I continue to improve our communication skills, and I am getting better at expressing myself in the face of adversity. We are rebuilding intimacy and affection, and I am improving in both. I am getting better at recognizing when I am filling non-sexual needs with sex, and am slowly becoming more content in a conventional relationship.
I have been struggling with depression and anger, so I had to stay away from here for a time. In the beginning, reading of everyones struggles helped me, but I reached a point where I needed to get away from all the negativity. Now that I feel stronger, I hope to enjoy you all again. I hate to see many of the faces I knew best missing from the posts. MichaelB hasnt written me in a long time, nor had Mark. I see why, and am grieved to find out Mark has died. I hope something I offered him helped.
Well, thats about it for now. I hope to get to know the new faces.
