unloved

unloved
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michael Joseph

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My little Mikey feels unloved and abandoned.
Sometimes the 39 year old feels that way too.
The abuse left me so empty. It is too bad.
I still feel like I have grown, I just won-der if the unloved feeling ever goes away.

I am glad for this place, and whenever I find someone at other sites I send them here.
It is good that I have some place to go where I can share about the abuse. I do not have too many places. Even in therapy we end up discussing other things. We very rarely talk about it
 
Perhaps its time for a new therapist. One that may push u more & keep u focused. And ya, Im taking my own advice. Its REALLY hard to do, but its time to change, for me. Maybe for U also?
 
no my therapist is doing good, it is ok to feel, that is what i am doing. I have a lot to be sad about, and instead of hiding it I want to show it more. I am not going around being sad all the time, it hits a little bit.
I welcome my feelings.

Feelings are neither good or bad they just are.
 
Hello-
Thanks for being here.

I've come to think, the child in me, thinks and wants the kind of feelings I received as a child, which wasn't very positive, and any kind of thouching was mostly S.A.( for me )
Then as an adult, other then with my wife,
when I'm feeling again like the child in me,
and feeling lonely or not getting very much positive touching.
I've sort of re-learned. I still get the feelings but how I deal with getting my feelings resolved today, can help me feel better sooner.
Which is why I'm glad to see my self in others that log-on to post their feelings.
fmighell anc ak
 
Everyone,
Sa males are freaked out more than anyone else will ever understand!!! To feel loved and complete he must feel the SA again but in control this time...like a recharge every now and then. Some go to the active role and some remain passive....it's the control of the SA that matters. I'm not trying to say that this is safe or really the best thing for you...it's what the child wants...big time!!!!!!! Doing this can relieve pressure but leave you feeling down in the long run if you lose control and get hurt or hurt others....acking it out...can hurt more than help if not done right!!!!!!!! You feel a deep need to be sexually abused or the need to abuse others...it can be done safety but must be worked out in ways that will give you relief but not hurt yourself or others....you need to stop the circle of SA with yourself...takes some thinking and planing!!! The little boy needs SA to feel loved???? Seems like it for me and most that I have talked to! Feeling unloved because you are missing something that no med or therapist can give you...dope and cheap talk can't go the mile! Sure wondering around numb all the time... forceing yourself not to play with the SA thing and the little boy will be pissed off all the time...it's hard to feel loved when you feel pissed off and missing what you really want!!!! I wish everyone luck because I still beleive that female to male fisting is the best way to act it out with control and make the little boy feel loved and happy! I know that most of you think that this is nuts...I don't care, it works for me!!! If you are too freaked to try it or afraid or can't get the help from your wife or girl friend...what can I say...good luck!!!!!

Eddie
 
I agree each of us must find out what is good for us. I am doing good this week.
My groups are doing me much good. Thanks for your resonces everyone.
 
Ten years later, I guess I am more my age most of the time.

Sadness still shows up every now and then.

shit 49 God Grandson is right I am old
 
Sounds like you are wearing your age quite well with insight and more happiness.

Not old. Just aging well and so much the the better for it.


Daryl
 
Hey MJ,
I think it's a good thing to look back at old posts and see where you were at. You seem like your doing much better even though I've only known you for a short time. Healing is possible. Keep it up, your doing well.

((((MJ)))))

Andy
 
Ok so you are old. But you are loved too. Hey FiFi has good taste, ya know....
 
MJ,

You have kept the faith by continuing to heal and not giving up. It shows that you are strong and although I'm new to the site I have seen many positive posts from you giving encouragement to others. Your pain and sadness have made you able to help others which makes you bigger than both. Keep going because you have so much to offer others.
 
PLEASE Fifi has great taste. And I may be older but Moose is older than me. Last time I checked 48.6312 is not that old

I will survive
as long as I have you here by my side.

Thanks men u r funny.

m j
 
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