un - conflicted

[markgreyblue]

no longer needing to be in tune

it's odd -

been more and more going for what gives peace to me

what "WORKS" truly -

if it's too painful - don't go there

some find pleasure and a peace in say

.... the leather boy life -


or fashion - "name it"

or ....


it's not for me -

but as a fellow person - i am glad and respectful that we

each have our method of finding solace day to day

does that makes sense?

life used to be interpreted as an individual is

THUS -
there is one kind??

he must have thus - and this and that

say in the 1920's when a proper gentleman ... and all that --- it doesn't work that way -

as it's found people have different things that keep them actually happy - in this current society's structure -

it's guite better too - I feel

so much of what I may have been going for

was a deluded sense - of what one must be -

-


so - I walked a long -

I am really plain and simple -

all I ask is that we respect each others peaceful paths -


I like family fun stuff -

I like volunteering -

I like art and intellectual fun -

I like keeping fit

and yeah - I like planning for things -

and a happy home -

I am gay -

and it makes me happy

m

 

[markgreyblue]

I can see how when we are alone -

we like to distinguish ourselves by clinging to things

I do that all the time

and there is loneliness and fear
and obsessing on that - until I realize

hey something's not working -

I have a need here -

let's think about it -

anyway - that's what I'm saying
mgb