TRYING SOMETHING NEW

TRYING SOMETHING NEW
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Steven Heath

Registrant
A few months back I ran from MS for many "logical" and "well thought out" reasons in my mind. Now that time has passed, I realize that it is my MO to do this in many parts of my life. By this, I mean that when something arises that makes me
super-emotional, I tend to run in fear. Some things happened in the chat room which made me upset and downright angry. And rather than confronting the issues.....I bolted out of fear. Fear that has been with me for decades. My fear runs in two directions. One that I will be hurt physically. Or two that if I become confrontational....I will lose control and crush someone physically or emotionally to try to say....."see you fucker, I'm not powerless, and this is what it feels like". Neither is the most productive way to live. Anyway.....this is just me trying something new. NOT BOLTING.
 
great realization
trying something new is scary
not running and facing feelings is hard but seems like maybe you are ready for it?
sounds like recovery to me....
 
Steven,
Fear? Join the club. Sort of shocking to discover every decision one makes in life is based on either fear or proving that I'm not afraid. You're right. Both poles are dangerous.
Glad you're back.
Paul
 
Steve,

Welcome back. It sounds to me like you are saying that neither living in fear nor replying aggressively to every perceived wrong is a way to live your life if what you want out of it is joy and peace. Pretty good conclusion so far as I can see! And as Thad says, sounds like recovery in the making.

Much love,
Larry
 
Steven,

Welcome back. enjoyed running into in chat the other night. Glad you have returned.
 
Hey Steven!

WB Bro! Yup. Sounds like recovery to me as well. Ain't it great?

Lots of love,

John
 
hi steven glad your back
 
Steven you know how I feel, and I know you are a great friend if you are here or not. And you are busy. But I am your friend till the end.

I care about you and your loved ones. Most of all I have been touched by you and you by me.

That is a great gift, thanks for being my friend.

MJ
 
Steve,

Welcome back.

It is nice to see you here again.

Alexey
 
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