trouble saying good bye

[Christian]

I Was wondering, an issue that has com up of late, does any one else have trouble saying good bye. I am a college student and was able to graduate with the class I came in with (I changed majors my junior year and it set me back a few years). Whith that class went 2 really good friends and my best friend. When I look back now instead of seeing myself enjoying the time we had together I just dropped them like rocks. I wrote my best friend tonight and broke down. I remembered how badly I treated him even at his open house. I look back and its true with all my good byes. When I graduated high school I left everyone.
I was wondering is it my personality, or is it because I was abused.
I thought because I was abused because now I am VERY select in who I let in, adn I hold on to those who are my friends so tightly that in the end its easier to think them enemyies than their leaving me.
I don't know, I just knwo that right now I feel so bad, and I don;t want to do this to others.

 

[wert]

I know what you mean. I have the same problem. It usually happens with my guy friends. I get jelous easily when others are their friends but it really hurts when they get married. I don't think that you are alone in this area. By the way I am heterosexual.