trigger
i had the strangest experience yesterday. and most embarassing. i was in class, it was a really long class and i was tired. somehow the topic of abuse came up. i just kept taking notes and i was mostly pretty bored. and then my prof said something, i still dont remember what it was, something about kids who are sexually abused by their parents. and i started to get dizzy immediately. and i passed out. right there in the mididle of class. anyway i got up and i was pretty embarassed and i told myself i was dehydrated. that has to be it. so fine ill take better care of myself. then i started to think how weird it was, just at that exact moment, what she was talking about. im sure its a coincidence. but maybe not? maybe it was just a huge trigger. ive never really understood the trigger idea much. i guess there isnt much that makes me feel triggered. yeahi think about it alot, i have flashbacks, etc. but besides some smells, not much catches me off guard in that sense. or at least not so severely that i pass out or make a big scene. anyway i still dont know why it happened. but its super strange.