**Trigger Warning**: Sexual Assault, systemic failure
Daniel_Survivor21
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Hi everyone,
I am posting here because I can't carry this alone anymore. I am 29 years old and I was raped while passed out in my car at Maryland live casino parking garage possibly drugged I don't know.
I went through the SANE exam. I filed a police report. I did everything I was supposed to and still I was ignored I told the cops I woke up naked they didn't even try to investigate this as a rape. I know what I experienced I felt someone doing stuff to me while being completely unable to move in a sort of dream state. In fact the cops were arguing why I wanted to do go through with the SANE exam. When they talked to the casino they reviewed multiple hours of video footage in less than 2 hours and told me they didn't see anything. I arrived there at 11pm and didn't get into my car until about 4am (based on my android phones digital well being data which I shared with the detective it can't be edited) and I passed out my brother didn't come to the car until 5am (based on his statement) and he left at ~6am at that point I unlocked my car to talk to him and then he left and the car wasnt relocked anywhere from that point on. Until about 9:40am the rape could have happened.... Then he left and anywhere from that point on. Until about 9:30am the rape could have happened.... I apparently never relocked my car door.. and during that time some guy which I vaguely recall and telling him no entered my car and did the rape as well as stealing my gun from the safe. The keys to the safe were in my pocket and this guy took them. The police even told me the gun didn't exist in the system until I proved proof of purchase and Maryland State Police (MSP) records. I was concerned they didn't even report it until I brought it up to the detective. Even at the hospital the supervisor a sergeant made fun of pronouns while I was giving an additional statement. Nobody even asked me for the clothes I had to bring it up so they could be collected as evidence and I had to push for them to be collected. I am still mad at my brother for leaving me like that even though I forgave him because of his own issues but it doesn't excuse his behavior.
I did file a FOIA on all of the body camera footage, but I still currently don't have a victim advocate. I had to advocate for this crime the entire way and I am devastated.
I am traumatized and the police failed me I still don't feel safe and I feel like sex for me is ruined. I used to be very sexually active but now I feel like shit and I don't know how to heal. I do have a sex crimes detective assigned to my case but when I was telling him everything about how I was drunk and flirting with guys calling them cute while wearing a shirt that said "bottom" he almost laughed... I can't help but feel this wont get handled properly. I tried reaching out to lawyers but 8 different law firms wouldn't hear me out they wouldn't even consult me.
I am hurting bad even in therapy I still feel destroyed.
I am posting here because I can't carry this alone anymore. I am 29 years old and I was raped while passed out in my car at Maryland live casino parking garage possibly drugged I don't know.
I went through the SANE exam. I filed a police report. I did everything I was supposed to and still I was ignored I told the cops I woke up naked they didn't even try to investigate this as a rape. I know what I experienced I felt someone doing stuff to me while being completely unable to move in a sort of dream state. In fact the cops were arguing why I wanted to do go through with the SANE exam. When they talked to the casino they reviewed multiple hours of video footage in less than 2 hours and told me they didn't see anything. I arrived there at 11pm and didn't get into my car until about 4am (based on my android phones digital well being data which I shared with the detective it can't be edited) and I passed out my brother didn't come to the car until 5am (based on his statement) and he left at ~6am at that point I unlocked my car to talk to him and then he left and the car wasnt relocked anywhere from that point on. Until about 9:40am the rape could have happened.... Then he left and anywhere from that point on. Until about 9:30am the rape could have happened.... I apparently never relocked my car door.. and during that time some guy which I vaguely recall and telling him no entered my car and did the rape as well as stealing my gun from the safe. The keys to the safe were in my pocket and this guy took them. The police even told me the gun didn't exist in the system until I proved proof of purchase and Maryland State Police (MSP) records. I was concerned they didn't even report it until I brought it up to the detective. Even at the hospital the supervisor a sergeant made fun of pronouns while I was giving an additional statement. Nobody even asked me for the clothes I had to bring it up so they could be collected as evidence and I had to push for them to be collected. I am still mad at my brother for leaving me like that even though I forgave him because of his own issues but it doesn't excuse his behavior.
I did file a FOIA on all of the body camera footage, but I still currently don't have a victim advocate. I had to advocate for this crime the entire way and I am devastated.
I am traumatized and the police failed me I still don't feel safe and I feel like sex for me is ruined. I used to be very sexually active but now I feel like shit and I don't know how to heal. I do have a sex crimes detective assigned to my case but when I was telling him everything about how I was drunk and flirting with guys calling them cute while wearing a shirt that said "bottom" he almost laughed... I can't help but feel this wont get handled properly. I tried reaching out to lawyers but 8 different law firms wouldn't hear me out they wouldn't even consult me.
I am hurting bad even in therapy I still feel destroyed.
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