*****TRIGGER WARNING MST******
MY ATTACK
It was late fall of 87 and in the navy on a carrier from Norfolk Va we were on a 6 week cruise and on nightcrew I'm tired and ready to hit the shower I try to be the last one in for I'm really conscientious about myself I'm shampooing my hair when I somebody shoves their fingers in my eyes full of soap I'm screaming and then I was pushed down landing on my stomach I was picked up by my waist to my hands and knees someone was stepping on my hands so I couldn't move I heard that ya we got some fresh meat here were going to have us some fun I froze unable to move I felt immense pain as he stabbed me from behind, I started to scream and was orally penetrated . there were four of them, as each one finished they left laughing I lay there in a pool of blood and bodily fluids I was numb and in a daze, I woke up in my rack.with my good friend who found me standing guard, we both were going to make a career out of the navy back then you just dont say something like this has happened you would be ultimately discharged so I repressed it for 29 yrs now I'm reliving my gang rape almost every day I've been through the VA for counseling and medication I've been awarded 50% disability for ptsd/mst they say I'm cured my life if a living hell I cant keep a job my wife and I dont hook up anymore my anxiety attacks during the day and the night terrors keep me on edge all the time now I'm questioning my sexuality WHEN WHEN WILL THIS SHIT STOP